"Here we are now, entertain us!"

Have you watched Moulin Rouge lately and soaked in it's Luhrman brand awesomeness? I have. I forgot how much fun it was.

I disappeared again. The holidays had me in a tizzy and I rung in the New Year with a nasty stomach bug. I'll catch you, my dedicated readers (Hi Dot. You're the only one.) up on what's goin' down in Shut-rump Town.

-I moved in my new apartment which I fucking LORVE. It's so great living alone, it's done a lot for my peace of mind. Nothing against prior roommates, it's just how my brain can now relax and reload without worrying about anyone else. Plus, I don't have to feel guilty if I have dirty clothes and dishes everywhere (just embarrassed if someone comes over).

-For Christmas, my boyz (Tommy, Kit and Ward) all pitched in and got me DDR: The Hottest Party for my Wii. I was so happily surprised and filled with everlasting joy.

-I'm now back to wearing pants I wore my first couple of years of college. Even some from high school! I just want to lose one more pants size and I will have reached my goal. I've lost 30 lbs since August and it feels great.

-I went through a slight amount of boy confusion but it's been cleared up for the better. Someone else lives too far away for my tastes but I'm going to go visit him in March. =)

-I'm drafting my friends to create art for my new place and I am so excited to see the fruits. I already have one amazing painting from my friend James Schroeder. I want everything to be original art from myself or my friends. Even if it is a smiley face in highlighter on some graph paper... I want it.

-I got the motion capture gig with Epic Games! Kit and I had our first day on the job on Wednesday and we had to take some pics to show the kick ass suits.

2008 had a crappy first couple of weeks to start but post birthday is treating me well. More later!

oh! i want a strawberry daiquiri! well, better make it virgin. i'm still at work.

lately, i feel as if my brain is a blender. people keep adding ingredients and my brain is on the ice grind setting at all times. constantly making smoothies but never quite quick enough to keep up with demand. here's a sample.

i'm trying to write a press release without making it sound like a corny review. i kind of suck at this. - there is a pad with apartment info in my eye sight, which one will i pick? - i'm worried about actually making it to cary by 5:30 for my audition for video game on thursday, maybe i should drive to cary tonight after work as a test run? - i might overdraw my account if this one check clears before my paycheck gets deposited - what am i going to do about christmas? i need to use my money on my new apartment, can i even afford my new apartment? where do i want to live? - gas is $3.15 right now. ridiculous. - my gum is still bleeding even though they said it would get better. i feel like it is obvious to everyone and makes me look gross. i know this is false. - what am i going to do about my prescriptions? my medical records are on their way from rome so i will get to read everything my last shrink said about me. this could help my book/play/whatever but also might fuel a fire. can i handle a meds switch right now? i know i need it but the stress of everything else might compound on the fucked up chemicals. - will i have time to go through my stuff and get rid of some of it before driving to va for thanksgiving? who will i have time to see while i'm there? - fucking 222. leave me alone. - callie said that she is worried that i will burn out in regards to the theater. - what do i think i can quit? nothing, really. maybe i can cut back after the festival. i don't want to cut back though. i'm either overcommitted or bored. - other separate subject that takes up brain space but not going on my blogspace. - i've lost touch with all these people because i am so busy. i need to write em a letter. i wish i could see dot. i'm missing courtney's wedding on saturday. i wish i had time/money to go visit ga. - and oh yeah, i'm at work. i always feel like i'm forgetting to do something. let's add blogging to the mix! that's much better than being productive.

gotta love the OCD brain.

the internet is for ... pron.

when our last patient of the day checks out at 3:30, sometimes it's hard to make the doctors stay put. this needs to happen in case we get a referral from downstairs or someone's nose is bleeding out or a drug rep comes by to give us goodies. (they must have a doc sig to leave said goodies.)

our doctor left at 3:30 and i was left to make awkward small talk.

drug rep: wow! they cleared out early today, huh?
me: yeah, it's difficult to make them stay put sometimes.
drug rep: has business been picking up for you? it's so quiet in here.
me: it comes and goes in waves. i think things will pick up the deeper we get into cold and flu season.
drug rep: yeah, i hear ya. so what do you do when the doctors leave early? (i cough as he says the next part) do you look at porn?
me: ... i'm sorry what?
drug rep: i said do you get bored?
me: oh! oh. yes. yes, i do.

you don't realize how much coughing distorts your hearing until you see a man in a suit with a smirk on his face ask you if you look at porn at work.

there are 10 ducks outside and they all want sun chips...

while dashing into the white cross BP to get a red bull this morning, i stumbled across these.



WHAT? one of my favorite chips combined with my favorite spice? this can't be. do they taste like sun chips? that would be weird. let's get 'em!

so i did. i mostly agree with this guy.


there is a good dusting of sweet cinnamon but it is then spiked with salty bitterness. is this the "great multi-grain flavor?" my only experience with mulit-grain is bread and sun chips so it could be that. did they choose to counter the sweetness with the salty so that you remember that you are eating something healthy for you, causing you to eat more? does the salt make you want water so they are trying to keep you hydrated? why would you make a sweet/salty chip? i'm so confused!

however, this didn't stop me from eating almost the entire bag throughout the day.

the heartburn wasn't worth it.

where the hell have i been?

i tend to fall off the face of the earth from time to time. maybe i'm down, maybe i'm too busy or maybe i'm just distracted.

this weekend rocked. we had an awesome halloween party. i had a couple of really good shows on saturday. sunday started off a little sour because i had to be in rehearsal from 10am-3:30pm. my self updating clock was not informed that the gov't moved daylight savings time back so i was awoken at 10:10am by my phone and a "where the hell are you?" call.

all grumpiness was erased because i got to drive to raleigh to see my fave band, for like, 7 years (omglulzwtfbbq) jimmy eat world. i was 2 feet from the lead singer's microphone stand. i was in heaven. kick ass show and i took some pictures that i am proud of.

the trailer for unreal tournament 3 came out yesterday. you can only see maybe one word that my character says in this clip but i'm just excited that the buzz is going to start.

and much, much more. i like wendy's chili. i am doing well and happy but very, very tired.

you have my phone number? lose it.

i am a pretty busy person. usually leave my house at 7am and don't return until around 10pm.

i have received 3 unknown phone calls around the hour of 8pm this week.

MONDAY 678-749-7259 7:48pm
TUESDAY 706-413-6433 8:11pm
WEDNESDAY 706-413-0436 8:02pm

monday, i was in elaine rehearsal and noted that it was odd that i had a missed call from an atlanta number. i let it slide.

tuesday, i was playing tennis. i decided to be obnoxious and call back to say "i received a missed call from this number" but i got a berry college voice answering machine. weird. called the number from monday. same thing.

wednesday, i was again in rehearsal. i called this number. same message.

is someone playing a trick on me? traveling around campus to different phones to call me at 8pm each night? could it be someone from my past? could it be a secret admirer? could it be martha berry's ghost calling me to tell me she knows what i did near her grave and seeks revenge?

most likely it's alumni services calling me for money. i guess they figure that 18 months out of college should give someone enough time to get a good job, have extra money and be really nostalgic for their alma mater. wrong.

EDIT: conversation with beef (bff) sarah from berry courtesy of gchat

me: have you been getting calls from berry?

Sarah: YES
FOR FRIKKIN MONEY

me: okay
i thought it might be a mystery
like a creepy secret admirer
that wants money

Sarah: hahahaha THE MYSTERY OF WHY BERRY NEEDS SO MUCH DAMN MONEY
they're probably running some underground crack ring.
like, CAGE isn't some guy's last name. it means Crack Addicts Generate Economy.

fuck you, adulthood.

i am currently spending about $450 a month out of pocket for medical expenses since i got fired. i am paying for insurance through my temp company but since all of this is pre-existing, they won't cover it.

my asthma has been acting up and basically reached such great heights that i need some preventitive measures rather than just my inhaler. i got some samples and then thought "hmm, wonder how much this stuff is?"

$400.

so i am now looking at $850 a month and that is money i don't have. i have 120 hours left on my contract before i get "hired" by this office and then i'll have to wait 60 days after that to be covered on their plan. so we're looking at 80 days of this. needless to say, i drew up a budget and found that my expenses (without gas and food) equal to more than i make in a month. i might have to get another job which has theatrical repurcussions that i can't think about right now.

CHERRY ON THE FUCKING TOP
they didn't receive my paystub this week even though i faxed it and mailed the original. rent is due on monday and the soonest i can get this week's pay is next thursday.

i feel like everything is a mess. all because of money and my lack of it/knowledge of how to manage it.